Oh Goodness,

This is a phrase I've become well acquainted with lately, it's an all purpose phrase, and I use it too much, I'm sure you've all noticed. I mostly use it as a release for things that take me back emotionally, mostly good.

Meredith's blog got a goodness today

The movie "Children of Men," the last 30 minutes my mouth was actively open, jaw dropped, and got excited later that night when I saw a baby on streets, goodness, that movie ensconced me in it's story, thank goodness for clean-flicks being back open or I never would've seen it. I've been living with my roommates too long, I'm getting the movie snob bug, however, I don't know if I can ever really be a movie snob because of my R movie stance, oh well.

I have issues committing to some things, jobs, girls, strategy, major, style of dress. It's hard for me because once I make one of those types of decisions there's no deviance in course, I have a hard time improvising my life when I'm in motion, and therefore I'm scared of making the wrong choices.

I love talking with people, especially people I disagree with on some level, I normally get heated and belligerent I don't enjoy this part, but I love talking back and forth with people who have thought something through. every time I talk about one of my "well thought out theories" I'm secretly hoping someone disputes what I say, because then we argue back and forth and I end up learning from what I say wrong and what they say right, it's like I need to hear it out loud to judge. I very much enjoy civil conversation as well, probably more than anything, however until I get to know someone well, I can rarely get to the things they really care about through civil conversation. It's something I need to work on I guess.

goodness, I didn't mean to have this post happen I just thought I would post whats on my mind, in fact I planned to write about a terrific conversation I overheard about electronic battle chess and avoiding infrared cameras and this came out, another day I guess.